Friday, October 24, 2008

Caution: HP at Work

I went to a 12:30 p.m. Big Book meeting and -- surprisingly -- my KindaSponsor™ was there! Very strange. Usually, the only meeting she attends is our home group on Sunday. We exchanged pleasantries and a hug.

We read the preface to the first edition and the beginning of There Is a Solution. I heard so much I needed to. The preface refers to the appendix about spirituality that has the William James quote at the end about "contempt prior to investigation." I shared about how I am scared to try to live according to my higher power's will. Someone said, "Progress not perfection." I haven't felt progress in quite a while. And I although I am afraid that going to meetings and listening will not help, there is a tiny shred of hope that they will.

Thanks for listening - JO

P.S. The comments form wasn't working before, for some reason, but it is now.

6 thoughts:

AlkySeltzer October 24, 2008 at 6:01 PM  

Glad to have found you, "Powerful Princess". (That is what I have you labeled on my blogroll from last July)

I do not believe in that "powerless" stuff IF, that's IF, I am WORKING THE STEPS, being COMPLETELY honest--with myself, my sponsor, AND others--and attending meetings of Alcoholics Anonymous regularly--that's DAILY, if possible. Because I DRANK daily for sure!

Ya see, our beautiful "meetings" are NOT our beautiful PROGRAM. Our program is our TWELVE STEPS! (Ask you sponsor, ask any successfully sober and happy old-timer (I am one, BTW!)

Gotta, going on our FIRST cruise GRATITUDE Cruise 7 nights...leave Sunday morning. BLESS YOU, Jubi...

J-Online October 24, 2008 at 6:12 PM  

I love your new name!! I am glad you and your kind-a-sponsor were able to hug after the e-mails. I was very impressed with what you wrote. Great job!

Syd October 24, 2008 at 6:56 PM  

The steps are the road to recovery. And if there weren't a power greater than me, I would still be trying to make my alcoholic do things my way. I've learned to turn things over to my HP. I don't have all the answers for sure.

Gabriella Moonlight October 24, 2008 at 9:48 PM  

It is pretty amazing that you could hug your "kinda-sponsor" and that shows that you are willing and that your HP is working in your life. I love your new site! I agree with Steve-o-roni completely that it's all about doing the steps! Keep up the amazing work...
G

Heather October 25, 2008 at 12:53 PM  

You CAN do this...you ARE doing it! One tiny step at a time.

dAAve October 25, 2008 at 9:34 PM  

Just keep workin' it.
Never give up. No reason to.