Friday, February 26, 2010

Balance is a Bitch

I saw my therapist yesterday; together we decided that I should knit a sweater with "Balance is a bitch!" on it. I think I may actually do it.

I'm at work right now and I have a computer, but I am not permitted to access the Internet, so I'm posting from my Blackberry.

Not much to report or write about right now, just want to get back in the swing of posting regularly. Looking forward to catching up with y'all.

Hugs - JO


Wednesday, February 10, 2010


A couple of weeks ago I asked my husband why we don't have sex anymore. I knew the answer but was devastated to hear it coming from his lips.

I wonder what I give him that makes him want to stay with me despite the fact that we neither sleep together nor have sex.

Reading these few sentences makes me feel doom about our long and very happy marriage. My therapist says there's more to intimacy than intercourse and it's true that we do hug and peck and snuggle... I wonder if my inability to believe that it's not that important points to the sick way I've always thought and felt about sex... I have often acted as though I have no value except for my sex.